Sooo Sleepy

I'm super sleepy, yet I'm fighting it for some reason! I had a very productive day, which is out of the norm for me on Mondays. So I'm a little proud of myself right now! Woot! I have an idea of why I'm fighting it and I just don't want it to be any closer to this Wednesday.

I've been avoiding thinking, talking, and accepting the fact lately that my Great-Grandpa Pete just passed away. I have only told a handful of people when I cant explain why I don't want to go out or why I'm unavailable this Wed/Thurs. I usually don't handle deaths like this so I'm hoping that I don't crash and let it hit me all at once. He was really sick and I knew that it was only time till he passed, so in a way I had accepted the fact that he would be gone soon. But I don't want to accept the fact that he is gone most of all for the sake of my Grandma.  They adored one another and had a great relationship with one another.  They could have had their own variety show! My Grandma is a little over ten years older than him and she would always joke that he was getting too old and needed to find a younger man :) Mind you she was in her early 90s while "shopping" for a new hubby.  Grandma is going to be 100 in April, which would be exciting but now I know she will feel like she has nothing to celebrate without her other half.  It's depressing just thinking about it which is why I have been avoiding the entire issue. But I've got to let go and help grandma in anyway that I can.